Even when I was really, really angry at him, I could never imagine that there would be a world without him in it. [She really could use that glass of water, even if she doesn't ask for it, just allowing Buffy to take the lead while she ... processes.] What did his look like? His wings?

[It's not something really important, some silly, asinine detail as she tries to deal with the fact that he isn't here. But it's something she doesn't know.]