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[The note itself is unexpected, but for some time, all the ex-demon can do is stare down at the words in front of her in some disbelief. Talk? What did that even mean, coming from the Slayer?

By the time the words had appeared, it was all she could do to not fling the book across the room. She had only been studying it to read over certain sections in that guide - about death and dying and how dying didn't even matter here, and how crazy was that, and thinking over any and all information that Buffy had given her beforehand that she had absorbed and never quite understood.

What was plain as day was that she was on borrowed time - time that could just be snapped up right like that, with no notice, no memory of it -

Her pen scratches back - harsh. Unforgiving.]

I don't need anything. Especially not from you.

-- ANYA

[The word is underlined a few times.]

That's just it. [ oh, each letter is like a wound to write. ] I'm the one who needs something from you.

What do you possibly need from me? [Especially since Buffy is the one who told her she was basically useless.]

[ forgiveness. clemency. mercy.

ah, screw it. ] That's what I want to talk to you about. In person, preferably. I hate these things.

It's always about what you want.

[Of course, Anya doesn't care for the journals that much either. They're such a half-assed downgrade from a computer.] Ugh. Fine. Where?

[ she nearly backpedals, right then and there. nearly scrawls that this is not what she wants. but, she reminds herself, anya doesn't know so. and she doesn't know the new, mature buffy who takes responsibility more often for what comes out of her mouth. ]

The tea shop. I always forget the name. Something about tears.

[For a moment she stares at the words, her own mouth saying 'What the hell, Buffy?' A strange location. She had let the Slayer decide, though. Maybe it was meant to be neutral. ]

Fine. Only one of those in town, right? I'll find it.

At your convenience. I'm in no rush.

Ugh. You're going to pussyfoot around it now? What if I say conveniently never? Let's just - get it over with. Whatever it is.

Look -- [ her scribbles are now a hasty mess ] -- I'll be there all afternoon. Show up if you want. Or don't.

Fine.

[And she leaves it at that, snapping the book shut.

It will take her a little while to cool her temper. More than an hour - close to two, even, as she wonders if the Slayer would still even be hanging around the shop as promised.

She almost decides to not go, but the idea of this meeting or this not-meeting looming over their heads wasn't a fun prospect to consider, either. Luceti was a small town, and there was only so long one could play the avoiding game.

Especially when one wasn't certain if it was a game they wanted to be playing.]

Buffy was on her fifth chai, and a half-finished danish she must have smuggled in now sat on a plate at her elbow. Her head was down. Her expression veiled. The Slayer looked to be at least mostly invested in her journal, flipping pages and scribbling messages and doing anything to avoid glancing at the entrance. Because entrance-glancing looked desperate, and Buffy hated to look desperate. Especially when the other someone involved was a thousand-and-some year old ex-vengeance demon who you've wronged in a pretty serious capacity. Anya might have been powerless, but she was still walking around as though she expected the sky to fall on her head.

It was all very undignified.

For the longest time Anya finds herself pacing in front of the mural that had been erected on a lone wall opposite the building. It hadn't taken much to figure out that the tea shop - Celsius Tear, by the name on the sign - was located on the second floor of the Welcome Center. Which, okay, she had poked in once or twice after arriving out of curiosity, peered at the large maps inside, mostly disappointed with how limited the entire place was.

Eventually she decides that pacing won't get her anywhere - in fact, it only would attract strange looks, and the last thing she needed was one of these goody-goody strangers to poke their head in her business and for her to decide whether or not the mess of a situation was worth explaining or complaining about to them.

Maybe Buffy wasn't even there.

She stops her pacing, taking a few uneasy breaths. Just what was this meeting supposed to do, anyway? One step, two. Eventually she reaches the top, scowling at the door for a few moments before pushing it open.

And there she was. Wonderful. And now Anya was here, framed in the doorway, bright colored halter in contrast to her still dark hair. Not as dark as she had worn it while possessed, but enough. She lets the door close behind her and stands, with her arms folded across her chest.

Perhaps it was the particular way in which the door had just closed. And, as if its sharp note was filled with all the hatred and disappointment Buffy expected to be met with, she suppressed a wince as it sounded across the relatively quiet tea house. Her fingertips touched the lip of her mug, she mourned how lukewarm her tea had become, and she gathered her wits about her as she stood from her chair. She didn't have to look; she simply knew. Anya was here.

Buffy raised a flattened palm, canting it once in an almost-wave. A signal. An invitation. But she didn't look happy about it.

Anya cautiously slides her eyes to the left and right to survey the shop, feigning slight disinterest before quitting the human game and striding forward silently until she's standing two feet away from the Slayer.

"I'm here. Talk now."

Buffy could be equally blunt when she wanted to be: "I wanted to apologize."

"... that's a first."

She doesn't budge in her stance. After all, Buffy hadn't actually apologized yet.

"...Not as first as you might think," she sighed -- but couldn't really explain how this place had changed her. And so: "I am sorry, Anya. I had no right to tell you what I told you. Especially not the way that I told you. It was scummy."

Her voice shook. Clearly, the apology was no easy feat -- and she'd only managed to talk herself into giving Anya one once she'd hashed the situation through with Jack.

"You're sorry." The word felt almost alien to her, strange to hear and strange to repeat on her own tongue. "Sorry...?" She frowns, looking puzzled at first, until it fades to disappointment. "Is that supposed to make me feel better, or you? Because, it's not doing a whole lot for me. Not that it matters, I guess."

"It's not supposed to make anyone feel better," Buffy insisted -- but could already feel the disappointment settling in. "It's just supposed to be the right thing to do."

"You can't take it back, you can't change what happened. It's too late to do the right thing."

Anya could recall a time all too clearly when doing the right thing involved her being impaled on the end of the slayer's sword. And when taking it back meant sacrificing herself - or so she thought - until she watched her oldest friend's life wiped out in front of her. The guilt that followed, thinking that it should still have been her - and then for all of that, she died anyway. What was even the point of living those few months longer?

"It's always been too late for me."

"Anya. You've lived a thousand years. How could anything be too late?"

"For someone who's survived dying twice, you're awfully dense! You know that? You - you just take this life thing for granted!" She waves her arms to emphasize her frustration. "You think that saying sorry is - what. Something you needed? What if I don't accept your sorry?"

"...For granted. Me. Hah. What gives you the right to say anything like that?" She sighed -- audible and bitter.

"When you decided that it was for the best to tell me - in the middle of a bar, in the middle of a crazy situation, that oh, by the way, you have no future."

[ written - june 15th ]

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